Singapore ― Homegrown actor Adrian Pang sank into a pit of darkness and despair when the pandemic struck last year and affected the theatre industry.
Having struggled with self-esteem issues throughout his career such as being rejected by overseas casting directors for not being good-looking enough, or caused by taking on a “menagerie of caricatures” under Mediacorp has made Pang fall into depression.
“The ‘black dog’ sank its fangs into me. I was not just non-essential but non-existent,” said Pang, using the metaphor for depression.
On Sunday (Oct 10), the artistic director of local theatre company Pangdemonium told an audience at an online mental health awareness programme: “It was hell. That’s what happens when you define yourself by your job and lose all sense of yourself without it.”
Through the crisis, his family supported him, but it was only after seeking professional help that he now has the “black dog” largely on a leash.
“Sometimes, love is not enough,” he said, quoting a line from playwright Florian Zeller’s play The Son, which Pangdemonium staged last year.
“If you have a broken leg, if you have kidney failure, all the love in the world is not going to cure it. Just like any other illness, mental illness requires professional help. There is no quick fix.”
In commemoration of World Mental Health Day on Sunday, a virtual event called The Unheard: Human Library was organised by a non-profit organisation Project Green Ribbon.
The aim of World Mental Health Day is to raise awareness of mental health issues, which many in Singapore and overseas have had to deal with amid the pandemic as safe management restrictions curb social activities and disrupt economic livelihoods.
According to the organiser, one in seven people in Singapore will encounter mental health issues, of whom only about half will seek the appropriate mental health support.
During The Unheard: Human Library, other speakers such as those who have not been clinically diagnosed shared how they had felt overwhelmed in various stages of their lives and found ways to cope, reported the Straits Times.
Founder of social marketing agency Goodstuph, Pat Law revealed how she worked 400 days without a day off and broke down eventually. Law then booked a week’s staycation for herself in Sentosa and went another week without checking her work e-mails.
“You have to let go, release the pedal and go back to gear one,” she said. “I learnt that I have a limit.”
Some shared about dealing with the trauma inflicted by demanding and emotionally abusive parents as well as the dangers of tying one’s self-worth to achievements like high school grades.
The guest of honour, Minister of State for Social and Family Development and Education Sun Xueling opened up about how she felt isolated and awkward during her schooling years.
“I remember feeling tired every day. I did not have any appetite, lost interest in everything and just wanted to sleep,” Sun said.
“I only came out of this dreadful period of my life when I entered university. In hindsight, I should have had more open conversations about my struggles with teachers and friends.”
In a Facebook post, President Halimah Yacob said conversations surrounding mental health must lead to concrete steps that improve the situation.
Youth, in particular, need extra support. “At such a young age, it may be difficult for some of them to articulate what they are going through,” she said.
To develop a pilot curriculum to better help social service agencies support youth, the President’s Challenge will partner with the Institute of Mental Health (IMH). Together with other agencies, IMH will offer workshops, webinars and activities till the end of October to reach out to more people and break the stigma surrounding a previously taboo topic.
A total of 18 MPs have committed to a campaign, #452TooMany, to create awareness on mental health through guided discussions with grassroots leaders, community leaders and residents.
#452TooMany refers to the 452 cases of suicides recorded in Singapore last year by the Samaritans of Singapore, a 13 per cent increase since 2019 and the highest since 2012.
Until end-October, Project Green Ribbon is also raising funds for its initiative, The Unheard, which will get more people to share their unique life struggles.
Donations can be made at the Project Green Ribbon website. /TISG